Dear max,
in so many words, a handful sending out their love, their message could be characterized in this song.
To Be With You
Hold on little girl
Show me what he's done to you
Stand up little girl
A broken heart can't be that bad
When it's through, it's through
Fate will twist the both of you
So come on baby come on over
Let me be the one to show you
I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Just to be the next to be with you
Build up your confidence
So you can be on top for once
wake up who cares about
Little boys that talk too much
I've seen it all go down
Your game of love was all rained out
So come on baby, come on over
Let me be the one to hold you
Chorus
Why be alone when we can be together baby
You can make my life worthwhile
And I can make you start to smile
When it's through, it's through
Fate will twist the both of you
So come on baby come on over
Let me be the one to show you
- i long for this...
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ange_brain- November 11th, 16:59
- what's up series : a dedication
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- ange_brain
- November 9th, 13:18
- demanding the universe
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- ange_brain
- October 22nd, 16:43
i'll have a boyfriend early next year.
and the universe will conspire to make it happen.
all the music i am inspired with will be our soundtrack.
i'm embracing the possibility.
i'm taking all my chances.
come on universe!
- on a positive note
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- ange_brain
- October 19th, 15:53
this song has been on repeat the entire late morning and afternoon.
When do stars fade their light?
Does the moon and the sun make it right
For you the world maybe
Like an endless storm chasing a mystery
Is there hate in your heart?
Does your body drop and tell you to stop
Loving you or loving me
When it all falls down you just sing with me
chorus:
Coz there’s a blue sky waiting tomorrow
Waiting tomorrow shining and shimmering
A blue sky waiting tomorrow
Waiting tomorrow
Maybe it’s all we need
Oh don’t you wash away that smile
You just look out the window and see the light
It’s beautiful to be alive
It’s wonderful to live a life
The sun is sure to shine
For you and me for everyone
So don’t be sad it’s just the start
Of a new beginning in your life(chorus)
Rain will keep on pouring
Some things you can’t control
And while the sun seems far and hard to hold
It will unfold
There will always be a blue sky
A blue sky waiting tomorrow full of hope
yeah, full of hope yeah(chorus)
- what's up series : 23 random stuff
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- ange_brain
- October 14th, 14:33
Dear max,
i have 23 things i'd like to share.
1) I strongly feel that in my previous life I was born in the 70s. I, probably, was a music producer.
2) Due to the digital age, I haven’t listened to an entire album unlike my cassette sound trips before. As I write this, I am attempting to listen to the entire album of Maroon 5 “It won’t be soon before long”
3) Again, due to the digital age, I haven’t bought a CD since 2005. The last album I bought was Bamboo.
4) The perfect pre-work-out food for me is oatmeal
5) I refuse to eat an entire bag of cheetos anymore. I get extremely guilty.
6) I have a picture of Venice in my work station. I dream to travel there and be totally European
7) I am a frustrated actress. Although, I often use my acting skills when I get pulled over by the MMDA.
8) Cruising though EDSA at 3 AM with windows down is liberating.
9) I consider myself as driftwood. I just wanna be taken away anywhere the social tide takes me.
10) I got a feeling….. something new is about to happen. I just can’t put my finger into it.
11) In my recent drinking escapade, I was considered as a heavy drinker, however in my other barkada, I’m in the light weight division.
12) I’d like to try out, Boxing, capoeira, hip-hop dancing, and krav maga
13) I’ve been training hard for a marathon and I cut my cigarette smoking to one stick a day due to training.
14) I don’t know what color to dye my hair to
15) I’m pasty white again…. I miss my morena look.
16) I haven’t played with my poi in a lonnnnnggggg time
17) I NEED TO FIND ANOTHER JOB.
18) I haven’t found the social niche I can nest in.
19) I’m lazy…. I listen to audiobooks than to read them. Currently listening to the Sookie Stackhouse book series.
20) I’m living in the dream world of make believe and reality, Stuck in the middle of it. I refuse to sort it out.
21) I feel excited over something that is not concrete and for some reason I am convinced that it’s real.
22) I found the perfect jeans!!! To a lot of people, this is not a big thing, but for me, it’s better than finding the Holy Grail.
23) I hate watching greek… someone curiously reminds me of someone I blocked off from my past.
- strangely inspired
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- ange_brain
- October 13th, 16:32
It’s about one moment.
In a scenery of high end drama
It takes one look,
Then a shot.
Smile.
It’s up to fate to decide
After the stage is set.
to just forget
to take a chance
Coin toss.
It just is.
Flat out one moment
A smile.
coin tossed.
look around.
- happy again
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- ange_brain
- September 28th, 10:36
Happiness is:
1. Letting go of the hurt.
2. Spending time with friends
3. Making peace with former foes
4. Moving on from old issues
5. People cheering that I can do it.
6. Belief that despite everything, i can pull myself up
7. People found it amazing how I do it
8. Finding a surf buddy… woohoooo!! I will conquer surfing soon!
9. Finding a shooting buddy
10. Quality glue friendships
11. Being among someone’s most trusted friends
12. Church
13. Increased endurance.
14. Slowly realizing that impossible can be nothing.
15. Having compassion despite my initial though I can spare any
16. Learning new things even if it’s the hard way.
- what's up series : a song to fit the news
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- ange_brain
- September 25th, 11:49
Dear Max,
i got some news today. and suddenly when i put down the phone this song played. guess what OPM song is this?
Is there something you wanna tell me?
Why do you look so tense?
You couldn’t even look at me.
I’m hoping you won’t let this chance pass by.
By trying to solve [problems because of]
the things you told me.
that someone else is right for me;
that I should love someone else.
CHORUS:
Oh.. Never, ever, ever tell me
that you didn’t feel my love
that is ready to
give you everything. even your freedom.
you thought about me
Like I am a star
that is never humbled
I may not show it
but my cry reached the heavens
because of what you told me
Bridge:
And in the evenings, who will sing you lullabies?
in the mornings, who will be the wind to caress you?
- what's up series : Song meanings
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- ange_brain
- September 11th, 16:57
Dear Max,
what's been up?? it's been a long time. my ipod is contributing to my portfolio of feelings.
“Glamorous” is one of the songs that transports me into a place of luxury. I associate it with gossip girl tremendously. If every I’d have a runway catwalk experience, this is definitely the song I’d be strutting on.
“You’ll be safe here” will definitely make the cut as one of my wedding songs. The lyrics, for me, say so much of being together. i really concur how Neil Gaiman (author of Stardust)puts what I love you is , “I really don't know what ‘I love you’ means. I think it means ‘Don't leave me here alone.’” the whole song tells about being there. “From the sheer weight of your doubts and fears, wounded heart, when the light disappears, and when this world’s insincere, you’ll be safe here”
“ A mi manera” is my Euro travel song. Along with the entire Gypsy kings songs. I haven’t been to Europe, but all their albums will be much listened to while traveling.
“Out if this Club” gives me temporary drug like happiness. For some reason, kinikilig ako with this song. WEIRD! It’s the dream like rhythm and melody, and the electronic voice of R. Kelly. Sound waves can be sexy.
“if you want blood (you got it)” my fight song. This is the song I play whenever I have to tackle something or have my game face on. The song is charged with adrenaline that shoots you up to speed.
“guillotine” my ultimate karaoke song. I memorized this song by heart. Give me a mic. I’ll sing this song.
“the fight is over” my break up song. It has the killer line of “There’s nothing to hold us now. Gave all this time just to be let down”. Beat that?
“block rockin beats” gives spunk to the swagger. Beat listened to while wearing a leather jacket, boots, and a kick ass black shirt, shades on, and taking a drag. There you go.
“Kiss from a Rose” slow dance with me to this song. I’d definitely melt if you explicitly lift this line “To me you're like a growing addiction that I can't deny.. yeah. Won't you tell me is that healthy, baby?” hahahaha junkie as it may seem. It’s a nice song
- office sanity
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- ange_brain
- September 9th, 17:56
Office sanity is a privilege not a right.
These songs made it bearable:
1. Summer time in the LBC – Doveshack
2. You’ll be safe here – Rico Blanco
3. You and me always - wannadies
4. Yugyugan na – POT
5. Waiting in Vain – Bamboo
6. Akin ka na lang – Itchyworms
7. Burning love – elvis
8. Sugar High – Cayote Shivers
9. Hopeful – Twista
10. What I like about you – the Ramones
- what's up series : my late July and whole August
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- ange_brain
- September 2nd, 17:27
Dear Max,
It’s been a long while.
These have been happening:
1. I’m not excited about my birthday
2. I don’t know if I should celebrate my birthday
3. Raquel’s engaged to Ely
4. My boss raises suspicion on my whereabouts… to think I haven’t done anything suspicious like apply to another company
5. Due to her suspicion, I tried applying… so far, I got 2 interviews
6. I’m going to run a marathon on the 27th of September.
7. I’ve been training for the marathon since mid-last week of august.
8. I’m hooked on “Stardust” by Neil Gaiman
9. I try to be more prayerful
10. My sister is becoming my best friend
11. Experienced a spontaneous Saturday at Alabang
12. Met the president of PDS and had drinks with him
13. I wish the president of PDS is my dad
14. I’m developing a bad knee.. :-(
15. Bonded with old friends and had a blast with them
16. For some reason being single doesn’t bother me but it doesn’t mean I don’t care that I’m single.
- what's up series : loneliness
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- ange_brain
- August 20th, 17:42
melancholy
I feel alone max,
More than ever now.
The world is becoming bigger and the population is getting thicker the sad part is that despite the billions of people in this planet, not even one is fighting to be with me.
I feel complete with no one to share it with.
What’s worst? Seeing how people just complement each other. The sight of it is reminder that being isolation is not the norm. it’s just happening to me.
it just sucks, that i was told i could do what i want on my own. i mean how blunt can that be? i can't pick myself up. i'm so sad.
- what's up series : On Reading
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- ange_brain
- August 14th, 11:45
Dear Max,
I haven’t counted the many times I see a book and become curious about the story. It’s in the blurb, the cover, the fiction type, and the author. I do not choose a book in this order. Anyway, I must admit that reading books is a form of escape that takes me to a different place and make me experience the scenario. This is why I stay away from the depressing Nicholas Sparks books. The aftermath of reading lingers in my memory, as if I, first hand, experience the events/scenarios in the book; the point of view of the main character become my own.
Since reading diverts me to another world, I run away from reality. This is incomprehensible. There is no past and no future. It’s in the moment of being stuck in the written imagination of the author. Prolonging the escape can be both frustrating at the same time savoring.
I am reading this book and I haven’t finished it. Actually there are 3 books I’m reading simultaneously but none of them finished. The main reason is that these stories are so good I just don’t want it to end. It makes me torn because I also want to know how it ends. The books are still in shelve waiting to be read while I, on the other hand, am half contented on not finishing the story and finishing it.
I haven’t exactly pinpointed what my problem is. Why on earth do I just stop reading? Why I don’t like at the same time like to finish good pieces of literature.
Maybe I figured out my ideal ending. I just don’t want it to be wrong or feel aghast that a good book can have a predictable ending. Or maybe, I don’t like to end the story because part of my fantasy ends as well. I can no longer escape to that kind of world and be the main character.
Hay……
- smileeeeeeeeeee
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- ange_brain
- August 12th, 15:37
Happiness is.....
Surrounded by so much energy.
Listening to my favorite playlist and singing along.
Watching G.I.Joe and wasn’t a tad bit disappointed.
Dressing up for an occasion.
Calm.
Being prepared in a presentation.
Elvis’ Burning Love. Lovvvvvvvvve this!
Looking for a new hobby.
Receiving a greeting by a friend I haven’t talked to in a long while
Being told that I’ve been seriously missed.
Re-meeting old friends and getting to know new ones
- what's up series: looking back
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- ange_brain
- August 12th, 12:07
Dear Max,
I read my old journals last night. And surprisingly, things have changed.
One is that the most pressing issue when I was younger, considered as life and death, is my poleco life. It was a struggle to graduate and dealing with my terror ass teachers, who has never failed in making me more insecure of my intellect. Another issue is my constant struggle with my relationship. Lastly is my angst and how it compromised my entire nature.
My angsty fangsty nature is the ruler of my writing. Hence, reading about it made me realize I’ve written out my frustrations and done nothing about it much. It’s consoling to vent things about, although it doesn’t solve anything if I don’t do anything about my current situation.
I know what you’re about to ask Max, what have I done to solve uplift my current state?
I have to contemplate on this.
Anyway, on a lighter note on my journal re-reading, I’ve written about the character sketch of my ideal guy. Wow, it hasn’t changed as much. Although I have to admit that my ideal guy now has matured and has a foresight on things. Nonetheless, I’m such a sucker for the artist type. I’ve typed casted him as an artist due to his persona of spontaneity and living the moment while using his creativity as a tool to be so. I’d fall for this guy in an instant although there are qualities that’ll keep me interested. he is someone who’s totally confident of himself and his capabilities, who also instigates conversations which are intellectually stimulating and listens to what have to say in response, who makes me laugh with his clever sense of humor, lastly, who is constantly considerate with my feelings and my thoughts and acts accordingly.
IF ONLY I can place an ad for this kind of guy. Or this guy is just my imagination.
- advise
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- ange_brain
- August 11th, 16:18
anj, just look for the good in people. Even though it’s like this, i dont think that u would want to be looked upon as a person they previously knew. hirap din pag ganun parang afterthought ka na for them,(like) “yeah friend ko sha dati but now no more”
- comedy sa office
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- ange_brain
- August 11th, 15:27
bali-balita for today:
"ang swerte naman nya! nasa sulok lang siya"
"shh wag ka maingay nanonood yan ng porn"
"alam mo madali lang magka-boyfriend. Choosy lang ako"
"Asan si Ben?"
"Ayun kasama ni Michael Jackson"
bumalik na si ben
"ayan na si ben!"
"Oo binalik na siya ni michael jackson"
"uyy... si kuya walang pagkain" referring to the messenger.
"OO nga e.. bigyan mo kaya"
"oo kuya kuha ka ng turon"
the utility got a turon.
"sige kuya bayaran mo na"
- what's up series: glass half filled
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- ange_brain
- August 6th, 22:33
i can’t seem to decide on whether who I’m writing to is a girl or a boy. Hence, I will settle with an ambiguous name, Max.
Dear Max,
A lot of people say that once you get abandoned, it’s going to be a rough road ahead. I mean, who will you turn to? Who will save you?
“why have you forsaken me?” screams at the deaf ---pointless
When I was desolated, I was just stunned. Partly, due to this confidence that I will not be let down again; another due this belief I can always count on acting on the right thing. Catatonic with surprise, I never saw this coming.
After a few weeks, what is more surprising is the effect of being alone did to me.
1. I meet new people.
I’ve been introduced to different people by hanging out with a different set of people. Social networking has done its job by connecting me to different persons. Since, I’ve been to myself, I enjoy the new company.
2. I hang out in different places
Being exposed to different people led me to different hang outs. It’s their thing and I happily tag along where ever they go
3. SPONTENEITY
There is more room for the unpredictable and the spur of the moment gimiks. Moreover, the refreshing conversations don’t end. New people new personalities
4. I bond with my family
Since my time seems to be passing by to my will. Spending time with family seems to be a natural thing.
5. I become introspective
“what did I do? What should have I done? What can I correct? What do I need to do from now on?”
6. Getting things into perspective
FOCUS! That’s gets me in track. Whenever a crisis with the level described as “I wanna die” level, it gets me into perspective on what is “end of theworld” crisis. In other words, because of this, I know what battles to fight.
7. I become more grateful
It’s the simple things.. ‘nuff said. All the small things that I see and experience make me grateful each time.
Yeah, I’ve hit the wall. you’re right.
- happy-ness
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- ange_brain
- August 6th, 11:06
Happiness is
1. Lechon for lunch
2. Potato chips fest while watching movies
3. Doing YOGA and sweating like hell!
4. Sleeping in… (zzzzz)
5. A midweek break.
6. Rain! Rainy weather while still in bed. Hearing raindrops is sooo calming.
7. Seeing non-hakot crowd in the streets for CORY. It’s a refreshing sight.
8. My mom’s good health
- what's up series: the difference
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- ange_brain
- August 3rd, 19:13
curious
Dear_________,
I feel different.
Something inside me is different. Physically , everyone changes. I’m getting older—my face lacks its natural youthful glow (I sound as if I need Ponds), my hair is longer, my hips curvier. Emotionally and psychologically, it’s not that I’ve changed. I feel different. There’s a difference between the two.
The situation I am in is not optimal. Let’s just say, I’ve been abandoned. It could be an understatement to people who haven’t experienced being left at. Who abandoned me? That’s a conversation over bottleS of booze. My work seems to take a lot from me. Pressure is something I can handle. I take pride that I can separate work from my own life wherein I do not live to work. Lately, my work is demanding a lot from me. Also, I’ve been disappointed. I’ve been told more than once never to set expectations. It’s only going to set me up to dismay. i was hoping too much just to be deeply disappointed in the end.
I feel different. After everything I’m going through or I went through, I don’t feel alone. For the first time, no one told me that it’s going to be okay and I’m gonna get through this shithole. Despite that, without any hesitation, I know it’ll be okay. I need no one to tell me that, unlike before. Also, notwithstanding my situation, I still manage to cheer people up.(Like i don’t need cheering for myself!?) The hope in me is still there. I believe in people, in their capabilities and their abilities to choose the good. I’m not jaded over the evil inside. There are evil people, however I’m hopeful that not everyone is.
You notice the difference?
